Monday

It's been a long day. I woke up this morning with a migraine headache that had also tormented me through the night. A quick look in the mirror showed zits still alive and well and my vacation tan disappearing. Any thoughts I had of wearing clothes today were apparently un-necessary. The laundry doesn't wash itself. So I stumbled downstairs still in my pajamas and let out a long grumble towards the mountain of paperwork waiting for me. I checked my cell phone to see I had already missed 5 calls and it was only 9:17a.m. I opened my email to see 21 messages waiting for me- ones that hadn't been there when I turned off my computer at 2:30a.m. the night before.

Oh Monday.

As I sorted through the paperwork and emails I discovered that I was denied health insurance yet again, leaving me still uninsured and utterly frustrated with the entire system. Basically they are telling me I am too sick to have health insurance. Gotta love America.

But then the tide shifted.

As I listened to my voice messages, two of them stuck out to me. One was from my Area Director telling me he thought I had been recording my donors incorrectly and that I was at a much higher percent than I thought. And the next message was from my cousin asking if she could become a donor. Both messages were good news and just the lift I needed to get working hard today.

So I called my Area Director and he was able to walk me through each donor and how to enter it into our system. When we were finished I realized that I am at a percentage that is more than double what I originally thought. I still have a long long way to go before I'm allowed to be on campus, but seeing the huge gap fill in just a little bit gave me so much encouragement. I can not wait to start hanging out with those JMU kids and I love that I am that much closer to getting there. I was thrilled by this news and encouraged to dig deeper into the work I am doing now so that hopefully that gap will continue to close more and more. There was just one detail that was left uncertain and as I worked I became anxious about that detail and how I would have to overcome it. But just now as my day ended I checked back with my Area Director and with my account and discovered that it had been taken care of- I didn't have to do anything after all. Praise the Lord that He cares about the tiniest details of our life, even when they give us un-necessary anxiety. It's been a long day and I am exhausted and there are some things like insurance that have not worked themselves out, but coming back to my account and seeing that one detail taken care of reminded me that God is bigger. There's a country song that I was
reminded of tonight that says,

"You've got someone here
Wants to make it all right
Someone that loves you more
Than life right here
You've got willing arms that'll hold you tight
A hand to lead you on through the night right here
I know your heart can get
All tangled up inside
But don't you keep it to yourself

When your long day is over
And you can barely drag your feet
The weight of the world
Is on your shoulders
I know what you need
Bring it on home to me"

What a sweet reminder that the Lord knows what I need and longs to provide it. He will accomplish for us all that He asks of us. He is bigger than migraines and insurance and fund raising. He doesn't care that the laundry is not done and that I have so much paperwork still to tackle. He wants my heart, He knows my heart, and more than that He delights in my heart. What a great way to end the day.